A tale of doctor and medical school

This is based on a true story.

My dream since i was a young boy is to be a pilot. Pilot for an airlines company to be precise. Traveling for free, great lifestyle, breakfast in Malaysia, lunch in India and dinner at US. A lifestyle that i'll be enjoying a lot (I am a type of person that loves getting busy).

But, it all change when I am in form 4, bout 3 years ago. A group of ex-student of my school came for a program during the activity week. They start telling stories about becoming a doctor, getting into overseas medical school and that really gets my attention.

Soon after the program, I'd change my ambition, I want to be a doctor. Started on that day, I kept telling myself that I must get into medical school right after my SPM. But, as fate had arranged, my result for SPM cannot be the ticket for me to be a doctor. Just one more A is the distance between me and a hospital. But still, I kept telling my self that I can become a doctor. So, I continued to study in Asasi Universiti Malaya.

When in Asasi, I took Life Science in order to continue my studies in medicine. But, again, my result didn't qualifies me to take MBBS nor MD. So, I opted to go to Universiti Malaysia Pahang and study Chemistry.

I'm still here and one day, I had watched the movie Saw(not sure which episode). I can't stand watching the scene when the bad guy is torturing or doing surgery to his victim. Then, there is another movie, Pathology. I felt a little uncomfortable feeling when watching the doctor opening a patient's rib cage. And, on that time I realize, I wasn't meant to be a doctor. I was meant to be something else, maybe a chemist or politician or a businessman, but not a doctor.

When I change my ambition to be a doctor, I never think about the corpses and other body exploring activity, but now, I already know why no matter how hard I work, I still can't be someone who I want to. It is because, that is not the thing that had been written earlier.